Irreparably Damaged.

Dear Mom,

I play back everything in my head over and over to try and figure out what went wrong? Looking back on what used to be breaks my heart. I remember the woman and mother you used to be. You were my everything, I would've given my life for you in a heartbeat. You were my role model, I wanted to be the strong woman were. You raised 2 kids on your own and we had a life filled with so much happiness, we never missed out on anything, we had everything we could've ever wanted. and now look at whats become of us.When I was in high school, i NEVER got into any trouble cuz i couldn't imagine ever disappointing you, all I ever wanted was to make you proud. Taking a yr off from college? I knew it was best and it had to be done and that was okay with me but that was 3 years ago. and whats changed? absolutely nothing. you still choose ur pills over us? what did we ever do for this to happen. I ask myself when will it end. I have done everything I can to try to help you. It has been you who has broken my heart over and over to the point where u do it all the time. Once again i just picked u up off the floor, even though i really just wanted to leave u there. You have us to live for but how is that not enough to make you want to change? I feel so irreparably damaged, like no glue will ever hold me together because it is you that has shattered my spirit.